Unable to commit to his fiancée of nearly four years--and with no clear
understanding of what's holding him back--Andrew McCarthy finds himself
at a crossroads, plagued by doubts that have clung to him for a
lifetime. Something in his character has kept him always at a distance,
preventing him from giving himself wholeheartedly to the woman he loves
and from becoming the father that he knows his children deserve. So
before he loses everything he cares about, Andrew sets out to look for
answers.
Hobbling up the treacherous slopes of Mt. Kilimanjaro, dodging
gregarious passengers aboard an Amazonian riverboat, and trudging
through dense Costa Rican rain forests--Andrew takes us on exotic trips
to some of the world's most beautiful places, but his real journey is
one of the spirit.
On his soul-searching voyages, Andrew traces the path from his New
Jersey roots, where acting saved his life--and early fame almost took it
away--to his transformation into a leading travel writer. He faces the
real costs of his early success and lays bare the evolving nature of his
relationships with women. He explores a strained bond with his father,
and how this complex dynamic shapes his own identity as a parent. Andrew
charts his journey from ambivalence to confidence, from infidelity and
recklessness to acceptance and a deeper understanding of the internal
conflicts of his life.
A gifted writer with an unsparing eye, Andrew relishes bizarre
encounters with the characters whom he encounters, allowing them to
challenge him in unexpected ways. He gets into peculiar, even dangerous
situations that put him to the test--with mixed results. Disarmingly
likable, Andrew is open, honest, and authentic, and what emerges is an
intimate memoir of self-discovery and an unforgettable love song to the
woman who would be his wife.
