It begins slowly, so slowly that I hardly notice at first. My chest
tightens and my heart begins to beat a fraction faster. I try to draw
breath, but instead I choke on oxygen I can't inhale. As I realise that
I can't breathe, the panic wraps itself around my mind.
I can't make myself draw a breath.
Rachael was aged just six when she had her first suicidal thought. Over
the next decade, life would become increasingly fraught with depression
and self-harm, and her outlook only bleaker. Before her eighteenth
birthday, Rachael would twice try to take her own life.
And yet amidst this darkness, a flicker of faith lived on.
This is Rachael's story of her journey into, and out of, the darkness of
depression. With unflinching realism and complete honesty, she shows us
what it looks like to live with mental illness, and how God can find us
and rescue us even in the most desperate of places.